- I think I finally know, like really know.
- October 28th, 2014
The kind of knowing that changes the way you think forever, and after you know, you know you must act. All our lives we have been told told that everyone is equal and that you are just as good as everyone else, yet they still handed out trophies. When you get into to highschool, especially in your last years, you realize that everyone is not equal, we all won't get trophies, and most importantly we all won't go the same places in life. So you go to college, you invest time and money in yourself to set yourself apart from the rest, for the social prestige, for the money, to show you are worth your dream job. In our society it is obvious that the janitor is not as qualified to cure cancer as the blossoming scientist. We don't say it but we know we are not all equal. Many feel it is social standing, economics or race that set us apart and though they are not wrong because those things are still very prevelant, I feel it is something else.
I think what makes two people so very different is what is at the very core of those two people, what drives them, what discourages them, how much stamina they have. We don't all have the same chances handed to us, this is just a fact. But who we are is a great determining factor of who we will ever be and what we will ever turn into. In our society we know this that is why we favor those who have the stamina to survive rigorous bouts, whether it be education or physical fitness.
So we know this about employment and destiny, but why don't we display it more in dating? Today I realized that by boyfriend, love of my life for 4 years, to put it the simplest form possible: is not good enough for me. Don't get me wrong he's a fine chap, he pays his taxes and feeds his dogs, but for me he just falls short. It is not that I believe that I am queen Shiba, but that what I need he cannot provide. I realized that I need a man that is strong, Jeremy is meek and it works for him, but it does not work for me. In our day and age where we always aim to get what we want when we want, why does it feel so uncomfortable to say that I feel that he is not enough and that I want better. I don't condone treating people like items but in life you must shops around, and compare prices when in the market for companions and no one should have to be made to feel hesitant about doing that.